{"id":3509,"date":"2018-02-16T00:00:34","date_gmt":"2018-02-16T05:00:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/awakenings.embklitzke.com\/?p=3509"},"modified":"2018-02-15T18:11:44","modified_gmt":"2018-02-15T23:11:44","slug":"thirty-three-02-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/awakenings.embklitzke.com\/?p=3509","title":{"rendered":"Thirty-three – 02"},"content":{"rendered":"

[This post is from Marin’s point of view.]<\/em><\/p>\n

\u201cMarin.\u201d Thom squeezed a little harder and it snapped me back. I sucked in a sharp breath, tears stinging behind closed lids. \u201cMarin, talk<\/em> to me.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cShe can\u2019t know where we are,\u201d I managed to say, my voice strangled. \u201cThom, she can\u2019t<\/em>. We can\u2019t go through that again. I won\u2019t<\/em> go through that again.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThrough what<\/em>?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAny of it,\u201d I said. \u201cAll of it. I just\u2014I can\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n

The memories of Cyhyraeth\u2019s encounters with Brigh\u00edd had been slow to return, but I had been getting them in a trickle, dreams that woke me in the depths of the night and left me shaken and angry\u2014sometimes even afraid. The only small mercy I\u2019d been able to cling to was that Thom had slept through it all, slept through memories that might as well have been nightmares. I\u2019d get up at night and pace the floor, holding our son and talking half to him, half to myself, trying to work my way through the awful things I\u2019ve seen, the terrible things I\u2019d relived in dreams.<\/p>\n

They\u2019d been coming since that moment on the wall, since her attack on me, an attack I\u2019d still been trying to convince myself was nothing.<\/p>\n

Thom still didn\u2019t know about it. I still hadn\u2019t told him.<\/p>\n

\u201cMarin.\u201d<\/p>\n

I rolled over onto my side, buying my face against his shoulder. He moved his hand, letting go of my arm and reaching to tangle his fingers in my hair as I curled against him.<\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s\u2014\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDon\u2019t say it\u2019s okay,\u201d I whispered into his shoulder. \u201cIt\u2019s not okay.\u201d<\/p>\n

Fuck all, it\u2019s so not okay.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u201cThen talk <\/em>to me,\u201d he said. \u201cTalk to me, Mar. What the hell is going on?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cShe\u2019s not dead,\u201d I whispered. \u201cShe\u2019s out there somewhere and she\u2019s hunting for me. She knows I\u2019m alive, knows Brigh\u00edd\u2019s soul is in me. She knows I\u2019m out here and she\u2019ll come after me again\u2014come after us<\/em>.\u201d My eyes stung as the tears began to flow. \u201cThom, I\u2019m so sorry. I\u2019m so bloody sorry.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

[This post is from Marin’s point of view.] \u201cMarin.\u201d Thom squeezed a little harder and it snapped me back. I sucked in a sharp breath, tears stinging behind closed lids. \u201cMarin, talk to me.\u201d \u201cShe can\u2019t know where we are,\u201d … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[240,284,14],"tags":[150,171,170,152,149,168,147,165,158,200,146],"class_list":["post-3509","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-book-6","category-chapter-33-book-6","category-story","tag-awakenings","tag-fantasy","tag-fiction","tag-marin-astoris","tag-original-fiction","tag-serial","tag-serial-fiction","tag-story","tag-thom-ambrose","tag-thomas-merlin-ambrose","tag-web-fiction"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p1EBlN-UB","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/awakenings.embklitzke.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3509","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/awakenings.embklitzke.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/awakenings.embklitzke.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/awakenings.embklitzke.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/awakenings.embklitzke.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3509"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/awakenings.embklitzke.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3509\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3510,"href":"http:\/\/awakenings.embklitzke.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3509\/revisions\/3510"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/awakenings.embklitzke.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3509"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/awakenings.embklitzke.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3509"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/awakenings.embklitzke.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3509"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}