{"id":4118,"date":"2019-10-14T00:00:57","date_gmt":"2019-10-14T04:00:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/awakenings.embklitzke.com\/?p=4118"},"modified":"2019-10-13T18:57:37","modified_gmt":"2019-10-13T22:57:37","slug":"twenty-four-06-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/awakenings.embklitzke.com\/?p=4118","title":{"rendered":"Twenty-four – 06"},"content":{"rendered":"

[This post is from Marin’s point of view.]<\/em><\/p>\n

I swallowed once, then again, eyes fluttering shut for just a few seconds. I struggled to regulate my breathing, panic starting to well up unbidden. This wasn\u2019t like me, not at all\u2014not anymore, not these days. I had to keep my shit together. There wasn\u2019t a choice.<\/p>\n

The images bubbled up whether I wanted them to or not.<\/p>\n

They weren\u2019t what I expected, though\u2014not what I\u2019d braced myself for.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

We rode on horseback together, Thom and I, our knees practically touching. I felt a little light-headed and he looked a little pale, but otherwise neither of us seemed to be suffering from much more than a few more lines, a few more scars, a few more gray hairs. He was saying something I wasn\u2019t really listening to as I studied him. The path we followed was narrow, but well-worn, sunlight slanting through the trees and a breeze worrying hairs free of my braid. It was quiet and comfortable and I felt so content that it almost made me ache because there was one thing missing.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Then he looked at me.<\/em><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

My eyes stung as the vision dissolved. I\u2019d seen things like it before, but never quite like that\u2014and I was always afraid. I was always afraid that somehow I would lose him, that somehow the visions would be wrong and something awful would happen.<\/p>\n

The future was never fully written, no matter what our friends thought, no matter how reassuring they found what Thom and I saw\u2014or didn\u2019t find it, as sometimes the case was. They took our visions as something that would<\/em> be because we\u2019d so often been right. There was going to come a moment where we were wrong, though, and badly wrong.<\/p>\n

As often as I lied to myself about it, nothing<\/em> was ever certain.<\/p>\n

Nothing.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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