{"id":733,"date":"2011-10-03T00:00:00","date_gmt":"2011-10-03T04:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/awakenings.embklitzke.com\/?p=733"},"modified":"2011-09-20T20:19:02","modified_gmt":"2011-09-21T00:19:02","slug":"day-18-chapter-11-01","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/awakenings.embklitzke.com\/?p=733","title":{"rendered":"Day 18 – Chapter 11 – 01"},"content":{"rendered":"

August 15<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em>Dear Thom,<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I hope you can forgive me.\u00a0 I know what I decided to do was sudden, impulsive, and completely unlike me, but I swear to it, it was something I had to do.\u00a0 Do you understand?\u00a0 I had to do it.<\/em>
\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I\u2019d have called to tell you all of this, but I don\u2019t get anything remotely resembling a cellular signal up here.\u00a0 My odometer says we\u2019re some twelve or fifteen miles out of Saint John, New Brunswick.\u00a0 Teague says Loch Lomond\u2014the lake itself\u2014is only a few miles west.\u00a0 \u00a0I\u2019m just hoping it\u2019s someplace safe.\u00a0 He says it is.\u00a0 Promised me it is.\u00a0 He hasn\u2019t lead me wrong yet, even though I know that you think he has.<\/em>
\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I hope that you decided not to go to the city.\u00a0 Something\u2019s about to happen, something connected to that damn asteroid, and I just feel like it\u2019s better that you\u2019re with everyone at the university.\u00a0 Something\u2014not someone\u2014tells me that.\u00a0 I know you stopped believing her and believing yourself, but please, just believe me in this.\u00a0 The interview isn\u2019t that important.\u00a0 If you walk away from her\u2014from all of it\u2014now, you\u2019re going to regret it for the rest of your life.<\/em>
\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 However long that\u2019s going to be remains to be seen.<\/em>
\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 We drove for days to get here\u2014twenty-some odd hours of actual driving time.\u00a0 It\u2019s beautiful, majestic, and I can feel the power here.\u00a0 I can feel it, Thom, in ways I never dreamed were possible, even when we were little kids, talking about those weird dreams I had growing up, the ones where I\u2019d see his face, the memories from another life.\u00a0 I know you don\u2019t want to talk to anyone about any of it, but you need to.\u00a0 If it\u2019s not me and it\u2019s not her, talk to Jameson.\u00a0 I think he\u2019ll understand better than any of your other friends.<\/em>
\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I just wish you\u2019d tell me<\/span><\/em>
\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I think if you stay at the university, you\u2019ll be safe from what\u2019s coming, but I can\u2019t be sure.\u00a0 Teague said that Phelan was on his way to all of you up there, but I don\u2019t know when that was going to happen or if he\u2019ll make it there in time.\u00a0 I know you\u2019ve never met him and you\u2019re probably not very inclined to<\/span> meet him, but please, for my sake, give him the benefit of the doubt and listen to what he has to say.\u00a0 Even if you\u2019re just going to decide to do whatever you\u2019re going to do anyway.<\/s><\/em>
\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I\u2019m worried about you, Thom.\u00a0 A lot of people are worried about you.\u00a0 But you don\u2019t need to worry about me because I\u2019m safe and in love and\u2026\u00a0<\/em>
\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I\u2019m married, Thom.\u00a0 We got married.\u00a0 I was going to tell you on the phone, but I couldn\u2019t find the words.\u00a0 I choked on them when I tried to tell you.\u00a0 This is easier, somehow.\u00a0 Much easier.\u00a0 I guess because I won\u2019t have to hear the pain in your voice when you ask me why I\u2019d do something like that.<\/em>
\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I did it because it felt right, because it was<\/span> right, and our souls were already bound across time and space\u2026so why not, right?\u00a0 I know you think he\u2019s crazy, but he\u2019s not\u2014no more than I am, no more than you are.\u00a0 He just knows more than we do, remembers more than we do, and I love him.\u00a0 That\u2019s the most important part.\u00a0 Regardless of anything else, I love him with every bit and fragment of my heart.\u00a0 He\u2019s good for me, and I think Mom and Dad would have agreed.\u00a0 Your parents like him, even if they think he\u2019s a little strange.<\/em>
\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I know, that\u2019s not much incentive to like him.\u00a0 But he likes you (god only knows why) and he\u2019s only met you once.\u00a0 He says I should be patient, that you\u2019ll come around eventually.<\/em>
\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 He knows how badly I want your approval, though.\u00a0 He knows how close we are, and he understand how important this is to me.\u00a0 I just keep hoping against hope that this letter won\u2019t reach you too late, that somehow I\u2019ll find out that you\u2019re okay with\u2026everything\u2026before something really bad happens.<\/em>
\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 And something really bad is about to happen.\u00a0 Otherwise, Teague and I wouldn\u2019t be here.\u00a0 He\u2019d be there, and I\u2019d be in the city, and we\u2019d both be starting to teach again in a couple weeks.<\/em>
\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Everything would be normal in my life for once.\u00a0 Can you believe how amazing that would have been?<\/em>
\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 There\u2019s so much I wish I could tell you, so much I wish you\u2019d understand, believe if I told you.\u00a0 But if I fill this letter up with all of that, you\u2019ll just throw it away.\u00a0 You\u2019d hate me for it, and I can\u2019t live with that.<\/em>
\n\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I love you, Thom.\u00a0 Write to me soon.\u00a0 I\u2019ll try to call when I go to Saint John for the last of our supplies.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em>~ Kira<\/em><\/p>\n

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