Winter – Chapter 15 – 01

                Finding J.T. and Phelan huddled together near the forge wasn’t in and of itself that unusual, especially in the past few weeks.  Phelan’s recovery had been slow and both Jay and Jacqueline had been keeping a close eye on the situation.  But when Phelan spotted me coming, they both looked relieved—and that was a little unusual.
                “Okay,” I said, my boots squishing in the mud left behind by a recent rain, “what gives?”
                “It’s Samhain,” Phelan said without preamble.
                Okay.  Thank you for telling me that.  I wonder why Kel didn’t mention anything—unless she lost track of the days.  I stared at him.  “Okay.”
                “Told you that she’d forgotten,” J.T. muttered, crossing his arms across his broad chest.  In the past few weeks, he’d begun eschewing his spiked jacket more and more in favor of a plainer jacket, suede that perhaps had once been dark brown but had somehow, at some point, begun to darken to black.  He wore it today, protection against the bite in the air.
                “What, exactly, did I forget?” I asked, peering at him.
                The last couple weeks had been busy.  The walls were up; the radiant heating system seemed to be working properly, but the true test for that would be during the depths of winter, when the winds howled off the lake and rattled walls and windows.
                Reinforcing walls and windows was still a work in progress.
                On top of that, there’d been inventorying our supplies and scrambling to make sure we had enough, had put enough away, would have enough for the long haul.  Tala and I were starting to get sick of seeing each other after that process.  In the evenings, I’d recruited the help of anyone I could lay my hands on to help catalogue the books we’d rescued from the library—and were still rescuing with each passing day.
                All in all, there had been plenty of reason for me to forget whatever the hell it was that they were talking about.
                “Think hard,” Phelan said.
                I could have punched him.  I glanced at J.T., who looked vaguely concerned and miserable all at once.
                Has he been seeing more ghosts lately?
                Ah, shit.  That’s what it is.  I smacked my forehead.  “The ritual by the barrow you were talking about the day Thom and I got married.”
                J.T. grunted, but nodded.  “It just feels like something we should do,” he muttered, shifting from one foot to the other.  He glanced around, as if he was concerned that someone would overhear our conversation.  Thom and Matt were the only ones within earshot, but they were busy arguing about something further up the hill.  “Not sure why, just do.”  He looked at Phelan.  “Tell her what you told me.”
                I turned to Phelan, crossing my arms.  He flinched slightly.
                “Don’t do that,” he said.  “You look too damn much like her when you give me that look.”
                “Brighid?”
                “Mmph.”  Phelan slipped past me and started down the hill. “Come on, let’s go sit down before I tell this one again.”
                “Tell which one again?”  I asked as J.T. and I fell into step with each other, following him down the hill toward one of the benches we’d rescued from the wreckage of Mackinac.
                “He told me about something that they used to do back in the old days,” J.T. said, shoving his hands into the pockets of his jacket.  “Some ritual they did during the harvest.”
                “It was on Samhain,” Phelan said, glancing back over his shoulder at the two of us.  “The gist of it is that my sister and Teague’s sister used to lead the maidens in the dancing and all to celebrate the lives of the dead and Teague and Seamus and I would do the rituals to send them to their rest, if that’s what they wanted.”
                I snorted softly.  “If you need maidens to dance, you’re going to be pretty damn short on them.  I think you’ll have Angie and Jacqueline.”
                “I’m not sure that they necessarily have to be maidens,” Phelan said, sounding almost thoughtful.  “I daresay more than half the so-called maidens that used to dance in the old days weren’t actually maids at all.”  He waved a dismissive hand as we reached the bench and he seated himself, leaning his staff against his knee.  “But that’s beside the point.  Not that important.”
                I sat down next to him, drawing one knee up to my chest, ignoring the mud on my boots.  “Then what is?”
                “The words—the ritual, that is.”  Phelan leaned back, staring at the clouds that drifted lazily in the bright blue sky.  If you only looked at the sky, it might have been possible to forget everything that had happened since August.
                One of his shoulders hitched in a slight shrug.  “It invites the dead to go to their rest, tells them that the road is clear and they can go.  They don’t have to, of course—it’s not some kind of crazy mass exorcism for ghosts or something.  It’s just an invitation to depart if they want.”
                I glanced up at J.T., then looked at Phelan.  “So not all of them would go?”
                “Nope.  Only the ones that want to.”  Phelan squinted at J.T.’s slight scowl and sighed, shaking his head.  “I told you it wasn’t a solution to your problem—not completely.  If some of them want to stay and watch over us, why the hell do you want to gainsay them that?”
                “I don’t see why any of them would want to stay,” J.T. grumbled.
                I shook my head.  “I don’t see why you’re worried that a lot won’t.  They’ve saved our bacon twice, Jay.”
                “Exactly,” he said.  “They’ve done their duty.”
                I sighed and pinched the bridge of my nose.  Phelan cleared his throat, drawing our attention.
                “There is one other thing that I should probably tell you before you jump all over this idea.”  He twisted slightly, looking at both of us at once.  There was a strange expression on his face, fear mingling with dread.
                “What is it?”  I asked, tilting my head slightly.
                He took a deep breath and exhaled it slowly.  “Well…she could decide to show up.”
                “She?”  J.T. and I asked in the same voice.
                Not Vammatar.  Who else…oh.  Oh.
                I must have gone pale, because Phelan nodded.
                “Exactly.  Her.”

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Winter – Chapter 14 – 04

                She slept for a time.  When she woke again, the sun was half-gone in the west, twilight moving in.  Her skin prickled with ambient power.
                Neve sucked in a deep breath, slowly trying to prop herself up on her elbows.  Her body sill felt like a herd of horses had trampled her, but the pain was a touch duller now.  He must have gotten her to swallow some kind of pill when she’d been awake before.
                “Cameron?” What’s going on out there?  Why am I—
                Her brows knit, something stirring in the back of her mind, just beyond the reach of her thoughts.  There was a reason for this—a reason for the power in the air—and it had nothing to do with the two of them.
                Or did it?
                Her heart began to beat a little faster when he didn’t answer right away.  She fought her way into a sitting position, hissing and hunching as pain shot through her ribs and spine.  Her voice became a croak.  “Cam?”
                “Huh?”  He appeared a moment later, eyes widening at the sight of her sitting up.  “Shit,” he muttered, drying his hands on the seat of his pants as he hurried to her side.  “Neve, what’re you doing?”
                “Where were you?”  She gulped down air as if she was drowning, but she hadn’t felt anything pop and she didn’t feel especially short of breath.  I didn’t just accidentally puncture my lung, did I?  Her fingers closed around his arm, tightening painfully for a moment before she forced herself to relax.
                “Fishing.  There’s a jetty about twenty-five yards down and the water gets pretty deep down at the end.  I caught a few fish that look likely for dinner.”  He knelt down, sliding one arm behind her shoulders and pulling their packs and saddles over behind her with his free hand, stuffing her pillow between her back and the pile.  “Here, lean back.  What’s the matter?”
                “Nothing,” she lied.  “You didn’t answer, that’s all.”  She scrubbed her hand over her eyes and shivered a little, tugging one of the blankets up a little, wincing at the sight of livid bruises that hadn’t been there before.
                He frowned and nodded.  “You sure?”
                She nodded slightly, staring out the open tent flap and past the fire to the lake beyond.  A mist was rising.
                Her blood sang, fingers tingling.
                What is…
                “What day is it?”
                He stared at her strangely for a moment, his brows knitting.  “Why?” he asked, elongating the word.
                She straightened slightly even as he tried to get her to lay back.  “Because I’m starting to see something out on the water,” she whispered, hands fisting in her blankets again.
                Out in the mist, lights like will’o’wisps flickered in and out of sight as the sun set.  Neve’s breath caught in her throat.
                Is it?
                “Can’t you see them?” she breathed, pointing.  “Look, Cam.  Look out on the water, into the mists.”
                He shot her a look that told her that at least for the moment, he thought she was crazy.  Then he looked out at the water.  His body tensed next to her, his eyes widening slightly.  He half rose to his feet, groping for the scabbarded sword that lay in one corner of the tent.
                “It’s okay,” she murmured in his ear.  “They’re not here to hurt us.”
                His voice shook.  “W-what are they?”
                “Ghosts,” she murmured, her hand tightening around his.
                “Ghosts?”
                “Ghosts.  Souls.  Call them whatever you want.”  She smiled sadly.  “I think it’s Samhain, Cam.  The only time the veil is as thin as it is now is on Midwinter’s Eve.”  Neve rested her head against his chest, wincing slightly as she moved her leg, rewarded with a stab of pain shooting up from her knee through her thigh and into her hip.  “When I was a girl, we would feast on this night and then the maidens would dance for the souls of the dead, to show them the way to their rest.  Aoife and I would lead the dancers, and our brothers would speak the words to send the dead on their way.”
                Cameron shivered.  “Sounds morbid.”
                “It wasn’t,” she said softly.  “It was beautiful and heart-wrenching, but it wasn’t morbid.”  She rested her forehead against his chin.  “Someday, you’ll understand.”
                At least I hope you will.
                “Someday, huh?” he said softly.
                “Mmhm.  Someday.”

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Winter – Chapter 14 – 03

            He didn’t dare stop until it was almost dark, three creeks and a half-dry river between him and the site of their ambush.  All he thought about was putting miles between them and it—and that Neve kept on breathing.
            Cameron turned the horses off the main road as the sun sunk lower in the west and headed down a narrower gravel path.  He could smell water beyond the trees, hear the sound of waves.
            Lakeshore, maybe?
            Tucked against his chest, Neve gave a soft whimper.  He winced, squeezing her gently with the arm he had locked around her shoulders.
            “Just a little further,” he murmured.  “Just a little further.  Then we’ll stop.”
            The path wound on for at least two miles before it opened up into a tiny grass parking lot above a rocky beach.  Buoys on twists of rope bobbed lazily on the water, marking out what once had been a safe swimming area.
            There wasn’t a soul in sight, but there was wood enough, and the parking lot was as good as anywhere to set up camp, tucked into the lee of the trees and out of the wind.  The place smelled of water and seaweed, neither smell as sour as Cameron might have expected.
            Wonder where we are.  There weren’t any signposts to tell him.  Maybe he’d investigate in the morning.  Maybe they’d stay a few days so he could find out.
            He set his jaw.  Assuming that thing doesn’t find us—or anything else.
            Lowering Neve from his saddle without dropping her or falling himself was a challenge, but he managed it by the skin of his teeth.  He laid her on one of their bedrolls and covered her with two blankets before he tethered the horses and began to set camp for the night.
            Fire first, he thought as he picketed their mounts.  Tent can wait until after I’ve set her leg.
                He winced.  Hope I’m up to that task.
                They’d just have to find out.

•                   

                “Ohhh…”  Neve’s hands fisted in the blankets spread over her as she came awake, teeth catching her lower lip to silence her pained moan.  If there was a part of her that didn’t hurt, she wasn’t quite certain what it was.
                My hands, maybe, but if I keep holding the blanket like this, that’s not going to last for long.
                “Neve?”
                She sucked in two shaky breaths before she trusted herself to speak instead of scream.  The taste of blood slicked her tongue.  Did I just draw blood, or is it from something…?  She swallowed hard.  “Cam?”
                Gods and monsters, I sound like a strangled cat.
                His body eclipsed the dying light that flooded into the tent through its open flap, his tread making the tent floor rustle and crunch with each step.  They winced in unison—possibly for the same reason.  “I wasn’t sure when you’d wake up,” he said as he knelt next to her.
                The look on his face said that he wasn’t sure if she’d wake up.
                “What happened?” she asked.  She could remember things in bits and pieces, as if her memory was a vase that had fallen and shattered—and a few of the pieces had disappeared.  “I remember trying to catch up with you, then the tree and my horse balking at the last second…and then not really anything.”
                “Something ambushed us,” he said quietly, smoothing her hair.  She winced slightly as his fingers brushed against a knot she hadn’t noticed until he touched it.  “I don’t know what it was.”
                Ambushed?  She squeezed her eyes shut for a moment, head starting to pound and thoughts starting to scatter.  “Who could have–?”
                “I don’t know,” he said.  “But whatever it was…it was big and ugly and really hated you.”
                Hated me?  Her lips formed the words, though she didn’t utter them.  Cameron’s brow creased.
                “I didn’t realize any of them would be that…articulate.”
                “Any of what?” she managed to whisper, trying to gather her thoughts again.  Bloody hell.
                “Your…enemies, I guess.  The monsters like those—what’d you guys call them?  Dirae?”
                “Furies,” she murmured.  “Yeah.  Why?  What was…?”  Her voice trailed away, her head swimming.  Enemies?  Which…who…?
                “Big, greenish.  Kind of like the Hulk but a lot uglier and more articulate.”
                It was like he was talking another language.  Neve started to shake her head.  White hot pain stabbed her eyes and she groaned, going still.  Déithe agus arrachtaigh.”
                “What?”
                She swallowed.  “Nothing.  Water?”
                “Yeah, hang on.”
                Neve listened to him get up, fingers tightening in her blankets.  Some of the pain was starting to ebb slightly, or was it just fading into the background in the face of fresher, sharper pain?
                Focus, Neve.  What the hell is he talking about?
                “Here,” Cameron said quietly, sliding a hand under her head.  She flinched a little as he raised her up.
                “Ooof.”  The sound was half an exhaled breath, half a moan.
                “Sorry,” he mumbled.  “Am I hurting you?”
                “I’m more thirsty,” she told him, opening her eyes and blinking back tears.  “I’ll live.”  One shaky hand covered his as he lifted a water bottle to her lips and helped her drink.  She leaned into his cradling arm, looking up at him.
                Worry was etched in every line of his face, his brows knit, jaw set, dark hollows already forming beneath his eyes.
                She pushed the water bottle away.  Her throat hurt less now, and her mouth didn’t taste like blood anymore.  “How bad is it, Cam?”
                “Your horse threw you into a tree.” His voice broke.  “I didn’t think you were alive at first.  I prayed, I hoped.  I shot the thing and it ran away, but I don’t know if it’ll find us again.  Rode all day to get as far away from it as we could.”
                “How far?”
                “Three creeks and a river and I don’t know how many miles.”  Cameron leaned in and pressed a gentle kiss to her forehead.  “I just hope we’re safe.  I don’t—I can’t—”  He broke off, exhaling through his teeth.  “I’m afraid, Neve.  I’m afraid of how bad you might be hurt, I’m afraid that it’ll catch up with us, I’m afraid I didn’t set your leg right, I’m just…I’m fucking terrified.”
                “Everything will be fine,” she whispered.  A ball of ice settled in her belly.  Would it, or was she lying to them both?  She groped for his hand, caught it, squeezed.
                “Everything will be fine.”

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Winter – Chapter 14 – 02

            Two miles later, they rode into the ambush.
            The silence that had reigned over the world, silence that came with the silent shift toward winter, meant that they had little warning.  Thy hadn’t heard any birdsong in days, nor any other sound other than the occasional rustle of the wind through the trees, the hoof beats of their horses, and the sound of their own voices, their own breathing.
            “Cameron!  Hold up a second.”  Neve’s horse raced along at a gallop as his plodded on at a trot.  She’d stopped to investigate a bush a half mile back and told him to ride on ahead.
            Cameron laughed as he reined up, twisting in his saddle to look back at her.  “Misjudged how fast I was going, huh?”
            Their only warning was a bird’s call.
            Then the tree came down.
            Cameron’s horse reared, shrieking in startled fright.  He cursed, suddenly on an organic roller coaster that he wasn’t strapped into at all securely.  His fingers convulsively tightened around the reins in his hands and his knees gripped his mount’s flanks as he tried to ride out the creature’s panic.
            Neve’s horse barreled straight on toward the fallen tree.
            Cameron caught the barest glimpse of Neve’s determined expression as she flashed past, only feet from the tree.
            They’re going to jump it, he realized, about to shout at her.
            Her mount shied at the last second.
            Cameron’s eyes widened in horror as he watched Neve fly from the saddle.  She somersaulted through the air, sailing into a pile of brush at the base of another tree.
            She hit with a sickening crunch that slammed Cameron’s heart into his throat.
            No.
            A rumbling voice sing-songed from the shadows of the woods to his right.           

Pretty pretty Neve, apple of her brothers’ eye, got lost so far from home
Tried to jump a fallen tree while she was out alone.
Princess of the princes, pretty little Neve
Never learned the lesson of when to just go on and leave!
Now pretty pretty little Neve, apple of her brothers’ eye
Can do little more than shut up and wait to die.

            Cameron’s blood boiled.  He jerked harshly on his mount’s reins as he groped for the sword that should have been within easy reach.  His hand fell on the shotgun instead.  He risked a glance toward the brush where Neve had landed and saw no sign of movement.
            She’s not dead.  She can’t be dead.
            Breath burned in his lungs.  He summoned the last ounces of his courage and control.
            “Come out and face me like a man!” he shouted at the hidden voice.  His heart hammered against his ribs.
            At least if I die, I’ll do it defending her.  It wouldn’t have pleased her or her brother, but he didn’t quite care.
            Laughter that sounded like a rockslide answered him and a figure about as ugly as the same lumbered out of the shadows.  It—he—was easily eight feet tall, carrying a club as thick around as Cameron’s thigh.  A mop of gray-green dreadlocks clung to the creature’s scalp, its flesh the color of lichens.  Its eyes glinted gold even in the dim of the cloudy morning.  Its squashed, ugly face was dominated by a nose the size of his fist and a mouth that was almost just a gash in its flesh—except for the two tusks peeking out from beneath its lower lip.
            “Oh-ho, little princeling.  Our quarrel is not with you but with yours.  Leave now and you might be spared a painful death!”
            Please let guns work on this thing.  Cameron cast another desperate glance toward the brush before refocusing on the monster and chambering a round.  “How about no?”
            I pull the trigger and this horse is going to throw me, too.  I’ve only got one shot at this.
            The monster roared a laugh, apparently amused.  “Do you think your iron tube will hurt me, youngling of old blood?  Your toothpick arms can not strike me hard enough!”  It twitched a massive hand irritatedly.  “Begone and leave me to my vengeance, sweet so sweet!  The Wanderer she is not, but wronged us all the same has she.”
            “Fuck no,” Cameron said, enunciating each word as precisely as he could, forcing his voice not to shake.  One shot.  Make it count.
            He aimed for the chin and pulled the trigger.
            His horse bucked under him and he lost his grip on the weapon, tossed unceremoniously from his saddle and onto the road, the shotgun bouncing once before it landed a few feet away.
            From the scream he heard, the shot had been worth it.
            The blast caught the creature in the neck and face, and the scream was a wet, almost gurgling sound.  It dropped its club and stumbled back toward the woods from where it’d come, crashing and splintering sounds marking its passage.
            Scrambling to his feet, Cameron grabbed his startled mount’s reins, jerked hard, then flung himself at the tree that blocked the road.
            Still no movement from the brush.
            No, no, no, no, no!  Don’t do this to me, Neve.  Don’t do this to me.
            Cameron cursed again.  He grabbed both horses and dragged the skittish creatures around the fallen tree, then darted toward the brush.
            Please be alive.  Please.
            A giant hand wrapped around his heart and squeezed painfully at the thought of Neve being dead.
            He crashed through the brush, ignoring the thorns and brambles that grabbed at his pants, at his bare hands.  I have to get to her.  We have to get out of here as fast as we can.  Once that thing comes back, it’s going to be fucking angrier than a bee-stung wolverine being chased by a gaggle of angry badgers.
            She lay in a crumpled heap against a tree trunk, face deeply scraped by the bramble bushes she’d landed in.  A little blood trickled from her nose and the corner of her mouth.  One leg was canted at a somewhat strange angle.
            All he could think was, Please, still be breathing.  Please.
            He saw her chest rise and fall in a shallow, shuddering breath.
            Thank you god.
            He didn’t think as he scooped her up.  She gave a startled, pained gasp, eyelids fluttering for a moment.
            “It’s all right,” he murmured as he carried her clear of the brush.  “I’ve got you, Neve, but we’ve got to move.  No time.”
            She’s not going to be able to sit in a saddle.  Cameron swallowed bile.  This isn’t going to be an easy ride for either one of us.  Got to put miles between us and that thing, though—and ride through a river or three besides if we can, in case it can track us by scent.
            He loaded Neve onto his horse, sprawled on her stomach with arms and legs dangling.  Only for a minute, he promised her silently as he untied the pair of mounts. 
            Then he swung up into his saddle and looped both sets of reins around his hand.  He gathered Neve tenderly against his chest and rode on into the west.

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Winter – Chapter 14 – 01

            Neve hauled back on her reins so abruptly that Cameron didn’t realize she’d done it until he was a dozen feet beyond her.  He yanked his mount into a turn, brows knitting as he looked back at her.  “What’s wrong?”
            She held a finger to her lips, eyes on the trees lining the roadway.  Cameron’s stomach dropped like a rock.  Really?  Again?
            His horse didn’t seem to think anything was wrong as it pranced back to hers, nipped at its ear.  Cameron growled, jerking on the reins.  His mount danced sideways a few steps before settling down.
            Cameron reached for Neve’s arm.  His fingers brushed her arm and she startled, looking at him.
            “I thought I heard something,” she whispered.  She shrugged.  “I guess I was wrong.”
            “That’s been happening a lot lately.”  His hand closed around her wrist.  She seemed thinner after the past few week son the road.  Maybe she was.  She didn’t seem to sleep enough, either, even when they were staying in a settlement.
            He’d fall asleep at night with her pressed against him, her back to his front, his arms around her and her arms around his.  She’d always be awake when he stirred at dawn.  Sometimes she’d still be awake when he fell asleep at night.
            Her eyes met his.  “Don’t worry about me, Cam,” she whispered, lifting a hand to stroke his cheek.  “We’ve got more than enough to worry about.”
            A smile tugged at the corner of his mouth.  “Like winter?”
            “Yeah, like that.”  She leaned toward him, the gap between them so vast that he thought for a moment that she’d topple from the saddle.  Her lips brushed his cheek before she straightened again.  “We’ve got a lot of miles to cover before it starts to get bad.”
            They’d awakened that morning to find a thin layer of snow covering the outside of their tent.  The road was slick with the slowly melting snow, though their mounts seemed to take it well enough in stride.  The air had the familiar bite of winter, though by Cameron’s estimation it wasn’t even November yet.  Every settlement they’d stopped at—all four of them—had tried to get them to stay, as if they all knew that winter was coming and it was going to be bad.
            Of course, I don’t think you need to be a meteorologist or a climatologist to know that this winter’s going to be worse than most.  Cameron squinted at the sky.  The sun was struggling to break through a mass of clouds, a dim glow beyond gray-white cotton.  “Looks like the weather might hold long enough for us to get another few miles before lunch, at least.”
            “We can get further if we eat and ride at the same time,” Neve said, starting to get her mount moving again.  Cameron looped around her, ending up the opposite side of Neve and her horse from where he’d started, nearer to the edge of the road.
            “That’s true,” he said.
            “How’s your arm?” she asked as his mount drew abreast with hers.
            “Still sore, but it’s better.”  He still couldn’t understand why he’d been in such bad shape after that fight weeks before, when she’d come to his rescue on a Canadian roadway, even with all the explanations she’d offered, that her brother and Kira had offered.  The wound itself was mostly healed, but the scar was nastier than it had any right to be and still ached dully from time to time.
            She smirked.  “Ready to actually learn how to use that sword I gave you, then?”
            He blinked at her, tearing his eyes away from the road to stare at her.  The smile she gave him was impish as she reached across the gap to squeeze his knee.
            “I gave it to you for a reason, Cam.  I was carrying it for a reason and I guess that reason was so it would find its way to you.”
            Every time I think that maybe I’m not completely insane, and that maybe she’s not insane either, she goes and says something like that.  He forced a lopsided smile at her.  “What makes you so sure that I’m supposed to have it?”
            Other than the fact that once it was in my hand, I felt like it had always been there.
            Neve shrugged.  “Instinct?”
            “Instinct,” Cameron echoed, shaking his head.
            “So are you ready to learn how to use it or not?”
            “Why the rush?”  His stomach flipped.  Is something following us again?  The last time it didn’t stop until we got to that settlement with all the burning sage.  His eyes still watered at the memory.  There had been a lot of smoldering plant life at that house, but the girl who lived there—a cheerful, slender waif of a girl named Jamie—had been kind to them.  There was a letter in one of Cameron’s saddlebags from her to someone in Michigan.
            “Not that I expect you to go hunting for her, but since you’re going there, it just seemed like a good idea to write.”
            He couldn’t say no to that, or tell her that it was a bad idea.  She hadn’t been the only one to ask them to carry letters—Kira had only been the first.  One of his saddlebags was full of mail, some that could never be delivered.
            It was the least they could do to repay the hospitality that they’d been shown.
            Neve shook her head.  “Don’t ask questions you don’t want to know the answers to, mo laoch.  The fact of the matter is that we’re going to run out of bullets sooner rather than later and building you a bow like this one is impossible on the road—though I imagine by the time we get back to Teague, he might have gotten one started for you.”
            “That’s not going to be for a long time,” Cameron murmured, voice barely audible over the sound of their horses’ hooves.
            “I know,” she said.  “Hence the sword.  So are you ready or not?”
            He sighed.  “I guess so.”
            “Good.  We’ll start tonight.”
            Somewhere above them, a hawk cried.  Shivers shot down Cameron’s spine.
            It didn’t sound like any hawk he’d ever heard before.
            Drawing closer together, they continued down the road.

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Autumn – Chapter 13 – 03

            It would snow for the first time that night, but none of them quite suspected that it was coming despite the bite that crept into the air as they celebrated the marriage.  Matt and Rory found a solid, dry spot amidst the marshy turf of the arboretum to build a bonfire as the afternoon light began to fade; Jacqueline and Greg lit tiki torches, bathing the space in flickering light.
            Thom reveled in the feel of Marin pressed against his side, his arm locked around her waist.  She didn’t seem to mind at all, apparently unable to keep her smile from fading.
            “My face is going to hurt so much in the morning,” she whispered to him as they drifted across the turf toward the fire.
            “Yours and mine both,” he whispered back, kissing her ear.
            She laughed, rotating to face him.  Her arms settled around him and for the first time in forever, he didn’t feel a twinge of pain in his ribs.
            Maybe a lot of things are finally starting to heal. Maybe things will be easier for a little while.
            He rested his forehead against hers.  “All’s clear on the western front?” he whispered.
            Her smile grew slightly and she nodded.  “All’s quiet.”  She cupped his face between her palms, fingers chilly against his flesh.  He turned his face and kissed her palm lightly.
            Matt elbowed him gently in the spine as he walked past.  “Careful,” he murmured to them.  ”Someone else sees you two like that and you’ll get told to start kissing again.”
            Thom grinned, twisting slightly to look at him.  “Tired of watching already?”
            “The only person who’s been watching you suck face as long as I have is J.T.,” Matt said dryly.  “And I don’t think he cares right now.”
            Marin leaned into Thom’s chest, her arms snaking around his waist.  “You didn’t answer his question.”
            Her brother exhaled.  “All right, I’m fine.”  He smiled at Marin, reaching out to squeeze her arm.  “I’m just glad that you’re happy.”
            “I am happy,” she said with a bright smile.  Thom squeezed her and grinned stupidly himself.  Matt shook his head, choking back a chuckle as he walked away.
            The smell of wedding soup and bread filled the air; Tala was hard at work near the bonfire keeping an eye on both.  It wasn’t much of a wedding feast, but somehow the simple fare seemed like it fit—the circumstances, the ceremony, everything.
            “Thank you for letting me do this for the two of you,” Phelan said from behind them.  Thom let go of Marin, twisting slightly to look at him.  He’d doffed his mask, but it had left little red lines across his cheekbones and around his eyes, reminders of where its edges had lain.
            “I don’t know why you ever thought we wouldn’t,” Marin said softly, taking his hand and squeezing it tightly.  Thom smiled wryly.
            Maybe because you were as nervous about all of this as I was.  “We should be thanking you, Phelan.  You gave us the push we needed, and now it’s a done deal.”
            He nodded slightly.  “Aye, well.  I was just thinking that you were stronger together than you were apart, and something like this…that would drive that fact home.  Not just to you, but to everyone.  All of you are stronger as a whole than you are as single pieces.”  His fingers tightened around Marin’s and he touched Thom’s shoulder, squeezing it firmly.  Beannachtaí a bheith ar tú anois, amárach, agus go deo.”
            The hairs on the back of Thom’s neck began to stir as Marin leaned in to kiss Phelan on the cheek, murmuring, “Thank you, Phelan.”
            “Yes,” a voice like gravel said from behind them, boots crunching heavily on the arboretum’s path.  “Blessings be upon you because you will need them in these months to come.”
            Phelan jerked both of them back, trying to shove them behind him.  He only succeeded in throwing himself off-balance and stumbling sideways.  Marin caught him before he could hit the ground as Thom spun too quickly, almost unbalancing himself as he put too much weight on his weakened ankle.  Cold washed over him, every hair on his body standing on end.
            The figure who’d spoken was tall—more than six feet, for certain—with black hair cut to chin length, framing a face that could have been carved from marble by some Roman sculptor.  Gold eyes glittered beneath dark brows and his razor-sharp smile was cruel in a way that it made his skin crawl.
            Thom swallowed bile that suddenly started to rise in his throat.  The eyes.  Splash some red in there, and I know them.
            Shadow Man.
            “Cariocecus,” Phelan growled, straightening slowly.  “You violate the sanctity of these grounds.”
            “I remain outside your circle, Wanderer,” the figure said, sounding vaguely amused.  “And are not all welcome who mean to do no harm this day?”
            A crowd had begun to gather around them, voices falling silent.  J.T. and Rory appeared, stepping up to flank Phelan and Marin as Thom took a slow step forward.
            “What do you want, Shadow Man?”
            The richness of the figure’s laughter shocked him.  It rolled out in velvet waves, deep and booming, but was at the same time more Darth Vader than Mufasa.
            “Very good, Seer,” the figure rumbled.  “Very good.  Not many can see me as easily in this guise as who I am in my war guise.”
            Shivers shot down Thom’s spine.  I could barely see you then.  Everyone can see you now.  “What do you want?” he repeated, willing his voice not to shake.
            Marin’s fingers slid into his as she stepped up to his side.  Thom squeezed her hand as they faced the Shadow Man together—for the first time, though not the last.
            “I have come to present two of the last Seers in the world with a gift,” the Shadow Man said, his voice like a silk-swathed stiletto.  “A boon, really, but in this world we know now, I suppose they are much the same thing.”
            “What is it?”  Marin asked, her voice as firm as Thom’s had been.
            That’s my wife.  The thought warmed him even as goosebumps stirred again.  What sort of game was the Shadow Man playing?
            “Time, dear lady.  I give you time.”  The Shadow Man smiled.  “You will not see me again until the Feast of Midwinter’s Eve.”  He sketched a bow, throwing his black, crimson-lined cloak wide.  “Blessings and congratulations on your union, my lord, my lady.  Until we meet again.”
            Then, ignoring the silence that reigned for a few long moments behind him, the Shadow Man, Cariocecus, turned and walked away.

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Autumn – Chapter 13 – 02

                The sun had begun to slant through the trees, amber patches appearing on the grass and bushes as they gathered in the arboretum for the first handfasting most of them had ever attended.  The survivors clustered around the gravel pathway, settled on benches or leaning against the T-shaped metal arbor where Phelan stood with Thom.  The banner—Thom’s battle standard—fluttered in the afternoon breeze.
                Thom tugged nervously at his sleeves.  There’s no reason to be nervous, he reminded himself.  It’s not like she’s not going to show up.  You know that she’s going to be here.
                Knowing that didn’t stop his heart from trying to beat right out of his chest, or stop the butterflies from waging war against his stomach.  Dressed in dark pants and his black doublet, he felt almost like a shadow, like smoke, as if a stiff wind might blow him away if he dared to stand still.
                Brandon perched on one of the benches with his guitar, his fingers drawing a haunting tune from the strings.  Drew had the harmony on his violin.  Thom wasn’t sure either of them quite knew what the other was playing, but the sound was pleasing nonetheless.
                Where are they?  What’s taking so long?  He tugged at his cuffs again.  J.T. grasped his arm to make him stop.  Thom glanced up in time to see his friend shake his head almost imperceptibly, a smile tugging at the corners of the bulkier man’s mouth.
                Thom smiled back and tried to settle down.
                They’re coming.  Nothing’s going to ruin this.  Not today.  Thom glanced at his feet, studying the gravel for a moment.
                Phelan cleared his throat.  “It’s time, fear fiach.  You and Jameson both, turn toward me.”
                He spotted her coming, then.  Thom took a deep breath and slowly turned his back to the path, facing Phelan and feeling his heart start to beat a little faster.  It was the tradition of Phelan’s people that the groom not see his bride until they stood side-by-side to have their union blessed.
                J.T.’s hand fell on his shoulder for a moment.  Thom shot him another smile, this one reflecting his nervousness.
                Don’t forget the words, damn it all.  Don’t forget the words.
                He stared at Phelan, focused on the intricate tooling of the man’s doublet, of how comfortable he seemed to be in the garb that would have left Thom squirming with discomfort.  Phelan wore calf-high boots with tight woven leather leggings tucked down into them.  His doublet was brown with orange and green knotwork tooled onto the dark brown leather.  The shirt beneath was not quite orange and not quite red—in fact, it was almost the same color as his flaming hair.  Most remarkable, though, was the mask he wore that covered the upper half of his face.  Of the same brown leather as his doublet, it was marked with various patterns, including one that was painfully similar to the banner hanging above them.
                Thom had decided earlier that perhaps he should ask about that—but later.
                The music changed almost abruptly.  It wasn’t Here Comes the Bride by any stretch of the imagination, but it made Thom’s heart begin to swell in his chest.  She had to be coming now.
                Thom counted footsteps and heartbeats for what felt like forever until he realized that the footsteps had stopped and Phelan was speaking, his voice soft and his accent—for once—pronounced.  Fáilte deartháireacha agus deirfiúracha.  Blessings on all this day as we gather to celebrate the love of Thomas Xavier Sebastian Ambrose and Marin Vivian Astoris, anamacha spiorad faoi cheangal na fola ársa.  Who bears forth ár n-iníon Marin to this happy place?”
                Matt looked almost as uncomfortable as Thom, dressed in dark pants and a borrowed tooled leather tunic—Davon’s, Thom was half certain.  “Her brother does,” he murmured, just barely loud enough to be heard.  “Matthew David Astoris.”
                Phelan had said that their full names were important, though he hadn’t explained why.  Thom wouldn’t have been surprised if their ancient friend was going to be working a little magic that afternoon to seal the union.
                A fáilte a chur roimh agus ar a suaimhneas, deartháir.  Do you attest that your sister comes freely to this union without bond to any other man?”
                Matt nodded slightly.  “I can and do.”
                “Do you so swear?”
                “I so swear.”
                Phelan nodded slightly to him and turned toward J.T.  Thom risked his first look at Marin as Matt turned to her and kissed her cheek.
                The white brocade bodice hugged her torso, emphasizing the curve of her waist and bosom.  A full satin skirt cascaded into a train trailing at least five feet behind her.  Her sleeves were voluminous as well, falling in a wide, open triangle with one point starting at her elbow and slanting down into an incredibly wide cuff.  A crown of leaves, holly, marigolds and roses perched top her braided hair.
                His throat swelled and tears stung his eyes.
                She’s beautiful, like something out of a fairy tale.
                Phelan was asking J.T. if Thom was coming into the union without attachments to any other woman, but Thom could barely hear the words above the pounding of his heart, the roaring in his ears.
                Then Phelan was touching his shoulder and Marin’s, turning them to face each other.  Thom’s eyes met Marin’s and he felt his heart skip a beat when she smiled, shyly, nervously.
                Don’t tell me she’s got as many butterflies as I do right now.
                But it was right.  This was the way it was supposed to be.
                Leannán, fear fiach.  You have come here this day to pledge troth to each other, to confess and profess your love and your intentions to remain together for a year and a day, for as long as love lasts, now and forever.  Déithe agus bandithe miongháire ar d’aontas, beannachtaí a bheith ar tú.”  Phelan took their right hands and laid Marin’s on top of Thom’s.  From his belt, he freed a length of leather cord and wrapped it three times around their linked hands before knotting it carefully and bending to kiss the knot.
                Fear fiach.”
                Thom swallowed and stared into Marin’s eyes.  His left hand itched to rise from his side to cup her face, to brush his thumb along her cheek.  “Marin,” he said, voice almost breaking at first.  Keep it together, Ambrose.  You can do this.  “I have made so many mistakes in my life.  I’ve run when I should have stood firm, I’ve lied when I should have told the truth, I hid when I should have faced my fears.
                “Today, in this moment, I pray for your forgiveness and I vow to you that I will not hide anymore, not from any of it—from nothing that would turn me away from you, that could ever make you want to banish me from your sight.  You are my heart, my life, the breath in my lungs and the missing half of my soul.  I swear to you my love and my life from this day forward until the end of everything.”  I love you, Mar.  Always have.  Always will.  For a brief moment, he couldn’t breathe as he watched a diamond tear well up along the rim of her right eye and then trace down her cheek.
                Then she smiled and his heart began to beat again.
                “Will you take me as I am?  Will you have me?”
                “Now and forever,” she whispered.
                He closed his eyes as the butterflies finally went away and he could breathe once more.

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Autumn – Chapter 13 – 01

                “Is that straight?”  Matt asked from where he balanced precariously on a ladder that was a shade too short for what he was trying to do.  The fact that the banner kept moving and trying to wrap itself around him while he was up there didn’t help.
                Thom titled his head to one side, studying the length of green material for a long moment before he finally nodded.  “Yeah, I think that’s as straight as we’re going to get it.  Make sure those knots are tight.”
                “Believe me, they are.  We’ll probably have to cut the thing down.”  Matt clambered down from the stepladder and stepped back to join Thom.  “It looks good,” Matt said quietly, shoving his hands into his pockets, half-numbed by the wind.  “And it’s certainly going to surprise Mar, but do you have any idea why Phelan said to put this up?”
                After a brief hesitation, Thom sighed and shook his head slightly.  “I have ideas, but most of them are probably wrong.”  He eased forward, fingering the corner of the banner.  It was his standard from the festival, his flag for when he was smacking someone else around with a stick in the lists.  “Maybe I tapped into something subconscious when I sketched this out four years ago and had someone put it together.”
                “What do you mean?”  Matt asked, watching the older man.  Thom didn’t look like he was about to get married in a couple hours, dressed in jeans and a university hoodie.  It was going to happen, though, and Matt was going to be giving his sister away to this man, would be making Thom his brother.  It was an almost frightening idea, one that he’d have balked at a few months before.  Somewhere along the line, he’d either grown up or Thom had changed into the kind of person that Marin deserved.
                Matt was willing to bet it was a little of both.
                Thom shook his head.  “I’m not sure.  Ever since Phelan told me about…my lineage…I’ve wondered about things.  You didn’t see the look on his face when I took out the banner, Matt.  It was like he’d seen a ghost.”
                “He’s had that look a lot lately.  I assumed it was shell-shock from probably killing Vammatar.”
                “It might be some of that,” Thom admitted quietly.  “Did Marin tell you that we’re ninety-nine percent sure that he did?”
                Matt shook his head.  “Nah, it was J.T. while we were making breakfast the other day.  He told me the story.”
                Thom nodded slowly.  “It’s a hell of a story.”
                “Yeah, it was.”  Matt crossed his arms and stared at the banner for another moment.  A Celtic knot twisted around a sword and a rose, all on a green field.  There had been a lot of piecing and stitching involved in making the thing.
                “Who made that for you, anyway?”  Matt asked.  Not Marin.  She doesn’t have that kind of patience.
                “Carolyn,” Thom said, stepping back from it.  “It was a challenge and she enjoyed doing it, but she also said she’d never do it again—ever.”  A wry smile tugged at the corner of his mouth.  “I’ve tried to be careful with it as a result.  It’s practically a work of art.”
                “Not practically,” Matt said.  “It is.”  He grinned and nudged Thom.  “Remind me that when it’s time to make a flag for the village, we should get her to do it.”
                Thom laughed.  “She might kill us.  Anyway, I just kind of assumed we’d use one of the old university flags.”
                A part of me thinks that would be a fitting tribute to the place, but another part of me thinks that maybe that doesn’t do us justice—not now and not in the future, depending on what we become.  His brows knit for a moment, then he finally shrugged.  “We’ll have to cross that bridge when we get there, right?  We’ll probably end up putting it to vote in committee anyway.”
                Thom sighed shaking his head.  “When did we get to be a committee?”
                “Around the time one person didn’t take charge of things.”  Matt put his arm around Thom’s shoulders.  “Come on.  It’s your wedding day and you’re not even dressed yet.”
                “I’ve still got a couple hours,” Thom said, half in protest as Matt started to steer him toward the bridge.
                “Yup, and in that time you have to make sure you’ve memorized the vows I know you wrote and make sure J.T. hasn’t lost those rings.”
                Thom’s face flamed.  Two days before, he’d recruited Matt and Rory to help him acquire some wedding bands.  They looked like twists of white gold with a braided pattern to them, and they were all but certain they’d fit.  J.T. was hanging onto them for safekeeping.
                “And you have to make sure your sister shows up at the altar, such as it is.”
                Matt nodded.  There’s that.  “And before I can do that, I have to get dressed.  So no matter how you look at it, a couple hours just isn’t a lot of time.”
                “You’re right.
                “I know I’m right.  I’ve been right before, I’ll be right again, and don’t you forget it.”
                Thom laughed and Matt grinned, reflecting that maybe having Thom for a brother wouldn’t be so bad after all.

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Autumn – Chapter 12 – 05

                Sun bathed the plaza, shattered glass sparkling in the light, turning into some strange, post-apocalyptic wonderland.  We moved past the library and I shook my head slightly, brows knitting.
                “We’ve still got a lot of books to pull out of there,” I said.
                “You’ve pulled a ton out already.  Are there that many more?”
                “There’s a lot.”  I shoved my hands into my pockets, fingers slightly chilled.  I should have grabbed some gloves.  “We started up on the fourth floor and worked our way down.”
                “Periodicals first?”  J.T. made a face as if he didn’t understand why we’d do that.  All I could do was shrug.
                “It seemed like a good idea at the time.  It’ll be a lot of work, but hopefully we’ll clean it out before the worst of the snow hits.”  Hopefully we’ll have the time.  Our defenses have to come first, though.  “And if it doesn’t, hopefully the building won’t come down completely until after we’ve managed to get the rest out.”  And hopefully the weather won’t damage what’s left inside too much.
                He grunted and shook his head.  “I shouldn’t have asked.”
                I grinned.  “Probably not.  Thom did and he regretted it.”
                “Somehow I’m not surprised.”
                The garden, still a tattered remnant of its former self, lay a few dozen yards before us.  The hedges were a bit thinner with the coming of fall, but they were still a deep green, still hearty.  Stepping through the hedgerows and into the garden still had the feeling of crossing some kind of boundary, though, despite the destruction of the place.  I smiled.
                “What?”  J.T. asked, catching the expression out of the corner of his eye.
                “I didn’t feel it the last time—probably because everything was in such rough shape—but I did this time.”
                The look he gave me made it clear he had no idea what I was talking about.  I chuckled softly.
                “There’s a circle here—a fairy circle.  You can just barely feel it when you cross into the garden.  It’s like our wards, but not.”
                J.T. grunted. “So that’s what the tickle was.”
                I grinned again and slipped past him, heading toward the half-fallen trellis of roses.  The bright red blossoms were still in bloom, even this late in the season.
                “Mar, check this out.”
                I turned toward the sound of J.T.’s voice.  He pointed at something resting on a broken stone bench at his feet.  “What is that?”  I asked as I moved closer, catching only a bare glimpse of something white and orange and red and green.
                It was a circlet made of flowers and leaves—roses and holly and oak and maple leaves with marigolds here and there.  My breath caught and I knelt down to touch it, half afraid that I was imagining it.  “Where did it come from?”  I murmured.
                “Our little friends, I’d guess,” J.T. said softly.  “When I told Carolyn what I was planning to do today—the candles, I mean—she said I should bring you out here with me and check the garden.  Something tells me she knew about this little surprise.”
                I smiled.  “Well, it’s certainly a welcome one.”  I carefully lifted the wreath, turning it over in my fingers.  The knots that held it all together were so fine I almost couldn’t see them, but it felt far from delicate as I handled it.
                It only looks dainty and liable to fall apart.  Say one thing for the little guys—they do good work.
                I set it back down carefully and stood up, dusting a little mud off my knees.  “Let’s take care of the blessing and the candles first,” I said to J.T.  “We can come back up here and get the wreath and the flowers for my bouquet.”  I was rather pleasantly surprised that there were still roses, but not disappointed at all.  They were the one thing that Thom had never given me outside of festival weekend, when it was all but expected.  As romantic as he could be, that was the one thing that he’d never really been concerned with—he was more of a chocolate kind of guy.
                J.T. nodded, staring beyond the hedges toward the barrows.  Grass had slowly begun to spread over the turned earth, even this late in the season.  Perhaps someday, trees would grow there, sheltering our dead for decades and more, like what had happened at the nearby Norton Mounds, further downriver from campus.
                Or perhaps it would just become a small, grassy hillock, forgotten by everyone except for us.
                It seemed both scenarios were equally likely.
                I caught J.T.’s hand and we headed down toward the burials.  I could feel energy tingling through every limb, arcing up and down my spine as we grew closer to the burial.
                “It’s all holding,” I murmured.  “The blessings, all of it.”
                J.T. nodded mutely, looking distant and sad.  I squeezed his hand.
                “There was nothing you could have done for them,” I whispered.
                “I know,” he said, his voice thick.  “That doesn’t make it any easier to do this.”  He handed me the bag of candles.  “Lay them out,” he said softly.  “I’ll light them behind you.”
                I did as he’d asked, making the long circuit of the burial ground, J.T. three steps behind, lighting each tealight behind me.  The grass was still damp from the morning dew, still chilled.
                We eventually came back around to the place where we’d started.  J.T. knelt down in front of the barrow.  I didn’t understand the words he spoke, but I recognized the language as some dialect of Gaelic.  Whether Phelan had taught him the prayer—or blessing—that he uttered, I wasn’t sure and I wasn’t inclined to ask.  I just rested my hand lightly on his shoulder, adding my own silent plea to his words.
                Bless and keep us, my fallen friends.  We already owe you our lives once.  Rest peacefully and well.  This hope is my gift to you on this, my wedding day.
                My eyes slid closed and for a second, I thought I felt an icy caress on my cheek, the feel of cold lips against my forehead.
                I opened my eyes as the feeling faded and J.T. fell quiet.
                There was no one there.  We were alone.

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Autumn – Chapter 12 – 04

                I think it was a Saturday.  It was cool and crisp with a slight tang of woodsmoke and dying leaves, of frost and chill.  I shivered as I got out of bed—it was the first time Thom and I had slept apart since our reconciliation.
                I’d spent the night with an actual wooden roof over my head, too.  The radiant heating system for the sheds seemed to be working the way we thought it would, and while we’d need to do more work on all of them before winter really hit, it had been decided that it was more than time Thom and I moved into one of them.  Our impending nuptials—and the tradition that would keep us apart for the day—gave Drew, Kellin, and my brother enough of an excuse to move us in.
                Someone knocked on the door when I was half dressed.  I startled slightly, turning and yanking my shirt all the way down.  I padded across the plank floor and peeked out.
                “Jay?”  I opened the door fully and waved him inside, turning to start changing my pants.
                “Morning,” he rumbled, slipping inside and shutting the door behind him.  “Will you come do something with me?”
                “I’m not going into the ravine to get eaten by anything,” I quipped, tugging on a pair of jeans.  “I’d like to live long enough to get married this afternoon.”
                J.T. smiled briefly.  “We’re not going hiking down there, but I was hoping you’d come out to the Shakespeare Garden and the burial with me.  Carolyn’s busy with some other stuff today, and I’m not sure who else to drag along.”
                I turned toward him, already reaching for a sweatshirt.  “What’s wrong?”
                “Nothing’s wrong,” he said.  “I just feel like I should go out there—and not in a bad way.  Besides.”  J.T. smiled briefly and ruffled my hair.  “There might still be some flowers out there you can salvage for a bouquet.  If there’s not, at least we tried.”
                “Everyone else is more interested in making sure I have all the traditional elements of a wedding than I am,” I said, smiling wryly and shaking my head.  “Let me get my shoes on and we’ll go.”
                “You don’t need to eat something?”
                I laughed.  “With the butterflies going already?  No thank you.”  I tugged on my sweatshirt.  “Just get me back here in time for some of our friends to work feminine magic on me and everything will be fine.”
                “All right.  Let me tell someone we’re going.  I’ll meet you out by the bridge.”
                He ducked out and left me alone.  I sat down and pulled on my shoes.
                This is it.  It’s today.  No turning back for either one of us, is there?  I had to smile.  As if there was ever turning back in the first place.

                “Don’t leave me now, Mar,” Thom’s voice whispered very close to my ear.  His fingers were cold were they tangled with mine, like ice where they rested against my forehead.  I squeezed my eyes a little more tightly shut and exhaled with a shudder.
                “Promised I wouldn’t,” I mumbled, opening my eyes to stare at him.  The image was blurry.  My body ached, head pounding.
                Someday I will ask…
                I swallowed hard.  “I’m still here.”  I focused on the growing patch of red on his shoulder.  “And you’re bleeding.  What happened?”
                “That’s not important now, because we’re safe.”  He rested his forehead against mine.  “You feel like you’re on fire.”
                “I’m all right to ride,” I whispered.  “I can make it.”
                He shook his head slightly, a single tear welling up in one blue eye.  “I’m not letting you go alone.”
                “What about Lin?”  I whispered.  What about our son, Thom?  “He can’t come with us.”
                “They’ll take care of him,” he said.  “You know that Matt and Care and Jay will take care of him.”  His hands cupped my face.  “I won’t let you go alone.”
                I squeezed my eyes shut and nodded.  “Then it has to be tonight,” I said.  “Tonight, before we lose our nerve.”
                “Tonight,” he agreed.
                I closed my eyes again and let the world fade to black.

 

                I came back to myself a second later, a shiver running through me.  Shit.  What was that?  My hands curled into fists against my knees.
                Every action has a consequence.  But what will cause that?  Or is it something that’s meant to be?  I tied my shoes.  Something in my gut told me that the bargain we’d struck would haunt us for a long, long time.
                I set out for the bridge.
                Camp was comparatively quiet that morning—most people had headed for the walls again.  No one was by the cookfire as I passed.  Walking on, I could make out the figures of Thom, Phelan, and Matt up by the forge.  The foundations were almost ready.  Matt planned to pour concrete in the morning as long as it stayed dry.
                J.T.’s boots crunched on fallen leaves as he jogged to catch up with me, his hand grasping mine as he fell into step.
                “Thought you’d be by the bridge by now,” he said.
                “I probably should have been,” I said, forcing a smile.  “I saw something.  Maybe our bargain coming back to haunt us.”
                He went a little pale.  “When?”
                I shook my head slowly.  “A long time from now, Jay.  I’m not going to panic over it and neither should you.  Who knows, it could just be a weird dream.”
                J.T. opened his mouth to protest, then closed it again.  He nodded.  “Right.  You’re right.  Anything can happen, especially if it’s a long time from now.”
                I smiled.  “Exactly.”  I glanced at the bag in his hand, a small canvas sack.  “What’s that for?”
                For a moment, he looked uncomfortable, then shrugged and smiled sheepishly.  “Candles,” he said.  “Candles for the dead.  I thought—I thought that maybe—that maybe we—”
                “That maybe I should ask them to watch over us?”  I squeezed his hand.  “Maybe you should, too.”
                A weak smile tugged at his lips.  “Yeah,” he said softly.  “Maybe.  Either way, it seemed right to honor them.  It’s getting close to that time, isn’t it?”
                “Another couple weeks,” I agreed.  Samhain and the Feast of All Souls.  “A little early won’t hurt.  We’ll go again when the time’s right.”
                J.T. smiled faintly, nodding.  “I just thought that because it’s a full moon and it’s your day and all…”
                “It’s not a bad idea,” I assured him, squeezing again.  Our footsteps echoed through the ravine as we crossed the bridge toward the empty plaza.  I’d be married that afternoon out in the arboretum, under an archway—inside a liminal space.  Phelan had chosen the spot and blessed it, dragging J.T. and Jacqueline with him to do it.  That had been two days ago.  “How big are the candles?”
                “Just a bunch of tealights.”
                “Good enough,” I said with a smile.
                “Is it?” he murmured, suddenly a bundle of nerves.  I would have laughed if he hadn’t seemed so close to the edge of upset.
                “Yes.”
                We walked on.

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